Wednesday, February 20, 2013
Missing My Daddy
Six years ago today I lost my father, my best friend! My heart still aches for him and there are still moments that I wish he was hereto reassure me that everything will be okay. I miss his cooking, his fudge, the way he made me laugh, his teasing, jokes,stories, our shopping and the way he could make the worst day feel alright. I miss EVERYTHING about him being here.
I appreciate the memories God gave us the opportunity to make, even though I often wish we would have had more time. I know that there are moments and memories that we will have to experience without him, I also know that those moments might hurt due to his absence, but I truly feel blessed that God granted us the time he did.
February 20, 2013
I wish you could see us now, be proud that I survived college,and know that David’s smile is still impacting the world. I will forever hold your words close to my heart, your laughter fresh in my mind, and when loosing you hurts too much to bear I will envision you smiling down on us.
Love you always and forever,
Michelle and David
David Missing his Papa at his services ;( 2007
I found a journal I used to write to my dad after hepassed. I was breathtaking to look backat my entries and remember where we have been and how far we have come. Below is a couple of my entries:
May 30, 2007
I miss you sooo much! I long to hear your voice. So many exciting things are going on in mylife and not having you a phone call away is hard. I got a few more scholarships and on the 25thI met the First Lady. I know you can seeit all and are so proud, but I miss sharing stories with you. Hearing the joy in your voice and imaginingthe smile on your face.
I just completed my training and practical’s with thePhoenix Fire Department. I was nervous aboutgetting a code call because death is still so real for me and I know what greatpain comes with loosing someone you love. I did better than expected. Ithurts without you, but it hurts without you.
Keep our spots warm in heaven. Hopefully we won’t be there for a whilebecause we have a lot of work to do yet, but I cannot wait to embrace you. If you can please send us a sign so it doesn't hurt so much. I promise we will make you as proud as you have made us!
Love you Daddy,
November 7, 2010
It has been way too long since I have written to you! I guess this silly journal is a better thannothing, but it is a bitter reminder that you are no longer here. You were supposed to fill it for David and Ibut time did not permit that. I ammissing you so much and cannot believe how much it still hurts.
David is so big now ;) I can barely lift him. I’m tooscared to think about what happens when I cant lift him anymore so I just smileand do things the best I can. That strategyis not working to well for me right now. Many of my days end in tears nomatter how hard I fight them.
I am currently working as an account executive (sellingtrash cans). I guess between you and Iwe have officially sold it all now! I amalso working on two Master degrees. Iwill have my first one this December. Ohhow I wish you could be there to watch me. Please send me a sign that you are with us. David and I need you so much right now.
On our way to graduation. =) 2010