Sunday, June 23, 2013

Trusting and praising God with all that I am!  "This is a only a mountain tell it to move,  it will move, tell it to fall, it will fall.   Just a little faith can change it all."


Tuesday, June 18, 2013

I have been saying this for a while now, but I just feel the need to say it again... THE BEST IS YET TO COME... THE BEST IS YET TO COME!!!

Sunday, June 16, 2013

Happy Father's Day

Fathers Day is just another one of those holidays I tend to struggle with.  It is yet another reminder of my father's absence.  It also brings back painful memories of what it felt like growing up fatherless.  My father did become an amazing father and my best friend, but that was later on in life.  As a little girl I never knew what that  love felt like. 

Now as an adult, I reflect back on my life and see the many ways growing up without that relationship with my father impacted my upbringing and  some of the decisions I made. 
It has caused me to struggle with self worth and it is made it difficult for me to understand what healthy love looks like.  

I realize as parents we do the best we can and I take that for what it's worth, but my experiences make having to watch  my son grow up fatherless even more difficult for me. 
There's no magic wands to make this a perfect world we live in and although time heals, unfortunately time can't change things. 

That being said I am so very grateful for an eternal father whose grace is sufficient!  Life can hurt sometimes, our experiences can make the journey painful, but when we learn to rely on God, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE!!!

“4 Sing to God, sing in praise of his name, extol him who rides on the clouds; rejoice before him—his name is the Lord.   5 A father to the fatherless, a defender of widows, is God in his holy dwelling.  6 God sets the lonely in families, he leads out the prisoners with singing; but the rebellious live in a sun-scorched land.”  (Psalms 68:4-6 NIV)

No matter how much we can love one another, God is the only one
 truly capable of defining unconditional love. 

Happy Father’s Day Daddy, We miss you more than words can say!!!  

And a special Happy Father’s Day to our heavily father who has held us, supported us, loved us, and carried us through each and every one of our trials and successes. 

 “Then I said to you, "Do not be terrified; do not be afraid of them. The LORD your God, who is going before you, will fight for you, as he did for you in Egypt, before your very eyes, and in the desert. There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place." (Deuteronomy 1:29-31 NIV)

Wednesday, June 12, 2013

Forever Faithful

I have been patiently waiting for God to show me what is next for us.  I have remained faithful, but have been discouraged as the job hunt has offered no real leads.  This morning a friend sent me a message about a job fair.  It was last minute so I quickly gathered my portfolio and made myself somewhat presentable for an interview. I prayed that this was the sign I had been asking God for. 

10 minutes into the interview the Principal offered me the job on the spot.  It is the type of classroom/population that I am passionate about working with and the pay is higher than my last position.  Oh and an added bonus... it is less than 3 miles from my house!

God is good ALL the time!!!!

Tuesday, June 11, 2013

Life has certainly thrown me a few curveballs...  This time last year I had gone on six job interviews and got offered all six positions.  I have been on the job hunt now for over 2 months and I can't even seem to find any special education positions available.  

I know I should be scared, I'm unemployed with no income, no health insurance, I just had to get over $1700 worth of dental work done, and my mechanic just called to tell me that my car needs $648.00 in repairs.   

With all that said, I'm very thankful for the lessons I am learning.  I'm grateful that David and I are in good health, we have a home, and God is giving me the peace of mind to know THE BEST IS YET TO COME!!!

"And my God will supply every need of yours according to his riches in glory in Christ Jesus".   Philippians 4:19

Sunday, June 2, 2013

Me & This Wheelchair ~ by Michelle Campuzano  2013

Me and this wheelchair,  we have a love-hate relationship.  I love that we have it but hate that we need it.

I love that it helps my child get around,  but hate that it is something we can't live without.

On a bad day our chair reminds me of the limitations in our lives .  On a good day it reminds me that I'm lucky that my child is alive at all. 

Some days I hate folding it in & out of our vehicle,  tugging  it around everywhere we go.  Somedays I am sadden by the fact that everything we do and everywhere we go has to revolve around our need for this stupid yet so important set of wheels.

There are moments that I cannot stand the fact that we are identified by our chair "the mom of the little boy in the wheelchair", but I also have come to terms with the fact that it has become a permanent fixture in our lives.

Their are other days I don't even realize our chair is there because it has become part of our normal.

I love that our chair relieves me of the burden of lifting my child,  getting him from point A to point B. This chair and these two pair of wheels have become my partner, my co-pilot on this journey.  Our mission, to give my child the same opportunities every other child gets to have.

 I love our chair because it has been a tool that has eliminated some of the  burdens and limitations in our lives,  but at the same time I hate that we need it at  all.  

There are days  that my body aches &  I thank God that I have an alternate means to transport my child and then there are days that I look at our wheelchair and curse at it.  

You see our chair...  and it's wheels... Have helped us become stronger compassionate people!  Although there are paths in our lives that are not accessible to us, our chair has allowed us to travel a road that  has a trail and view that most are never able to experience.

Being lower to the ground reminds us more often to stop and smell the flowers.    Because our means of transportation is much more bulky and bigger than most. we have to make sure that we're always conscious of those around us, and considerate of their space and feelings.  

Oh and let me mention one more thing, that alternate route that we have been forced to take because there is not space or accessibility on the route everyone else is taking ,  it has forced us to slow down and enjoy the journey, to appreciate the small things, and to embrace what God has  given  us.

Although I sometimes hate our wheelchair, at the end of the day I  love the places it's brought us, the people it's made us,  and above all else I love the  journey it's allowed us to embark on!