I have questioned both God and myself on the matter. As I have reflected on the things that "didn't go as planned" I realize that God had put me exactly where he wanted me for the time being. The situations I've been put in and the experiences I have had although, not what I anticipated for my life, have been very beneficial to me as a person and my growth as a professional. Looking back I can now see how my steps were God ordained. I was placed exactly where I needed to be to become who I want to be and live the life I so desire.
That being said I'm currently in a situation that I did not plan to be in. I'm struggling with knowing if god has placed me here for a reason and to embrace the change, or if I need to follow my heart and search for change. If where I am at is where God wants me, I will embrace the experience and adapt as necessary. I just don't want to settle.
Today I realized that there was a miscommunication between the district and myself and the class I'm assigned to is not the population that I want to work with. Now I need to determine if if there's a purpose for me being there or if I should start looking for a different position. My last job was not what I was looking for, but looking back I realize that through the experience I gained a wealth of knowledge and friendships that were well worth the sacrifice.
The older I become the more intense my need for stability becomes. I'm ready to meet a man I can spend the rest of my life with, find a job I can settle in, and find a home I can raise David and more children in. This news has thrown me for a curve ball and is a complete game changer. What to do?