Saturday, February 20, 2016
She is beautiful, caring, honest, passionate, an entrepreneur, free-spirited, honest, sunshine, she turns my gray skies blue. She's my best friend Christina Hoyt.
When my father was still alive, he was my absolute best friend. He was our cheerleader, advocate, he was my strength when I was to weak or scared to carry on, on my own. He always offered wise council, with my best interest at mind. When he passed away it left a gaping whole in my heart. Every year on February 20th, I am reminded of the day, the day he took his last breath, the day that I was informed that I would never get to see him, hug him, seek his council, going a shopping escapade, cry on his shoulder, or share in another memory with him on this earth again.
The day, that in an instant our lives were forever changed by his loss.
That reminder has made this day very painful for me, for many years. God and my father knew how heavy my heart had been and had heard my prayers for peace and comfort. I believe that is why they sent me YOU! Out of nowhere I met this friend who was much younger than me, but that I was immediately connected too. It was like we had know each other our whole lives. We had fun together, we cried until we laughed and laughed until we cried, we were passionate about the same things, and we were both always up for an adventure.
It just seems so natural.
As we begin creating memories together I quickly realize just how extraordinary of a friend to Christina was. When I found out her birthday was on February 20th, the day I lost a piece of my heart, I knew it was no coincidence.
I believe that Christina was God and my fathers gift to me.
Through a great loss blossomed a great gain. Christina you have held my hand while I spread my father's ashes at one of the seven wonders of World. We have taken my father to Honduras and Europe. You did know he was with us right? LOL You traveled with me across the world to visit my mother who was battling Cancer in Spain. You have been that friend who is pulled me out of some of my darkest places. Even if I just needed you to play with my hair and wipe my tears when I needed a good hard cry, you were there. You encourage me and remind me I matter. You push me, drag me, lunge me forward in life. All the losses that once made it so hard to let my father rest, I have now found in you. I can never replace the relationship between my father and I, but he did one hell of job sending me you! Thanks for being the “That Friend” to me! You have forever changed our lives.
Thursday, February 18, 2016
Great reminder for me this weak!
This upcoming weak is filled with a million different emotions. Being sick with all this time to think might be a great opportunity to find some healing. For years I have struggled through emotions that taunt me in the month of February. Emotions about my dad leaving this earth on Feb 20th, my son's near death experience on Feb 23rd 5 years later, and God's miraculous intervention that has forever turned our life around. February also marks 4 years "Seizure Free" for David. I hear God speaking in my life and he is clearly saying "it is time to hand over your pain so that I can continue writing your story" and that exactly what I plan on working on.
GIVING IT ALL TO GOD!
Wednesday, February 17, 2016
This is the sickest I've been in a long time. I have pneumonia and gastritis and every part of my being hurt. I have no strength and every little task requires me to will myself through the process. I need my spirits lifted today and I'm so glad I found theses special home made cards in my mailbox. They made me cry! There's nothing worse than being stuck in bed. fighting a battle between your body and mind. I'm letting my body win this one and it's telling me to rest. That's extremely difficult for this ADHD girl but my superhero powers are on strike right now! Thanks for holding down the fort TEAM!
Friday, February 12, 2016
Man Pays it Forward to special education teacher: There's no doubt - a mother's love is strong. But when she spreads that love to other children in need it's truly something special.
I am so humbled by the gracious support and recognition David and I have received. Thanks again Pablo Beltran and all of our faithful supporters. To me I am just doing my job. It is an honor for me to be able to make a difference in this world and with or without a van I will continue to do everything in my power to "change the world one person at a time". An accessible vehicle would change our world and allow me to overcome some of the challenges we have faced as David has gotten heavier and my body has gotten older. lol Donations can be made at a AvanforDavid.org
Thursday, February 11, 2016
Sometimes God requires us to plant seeds, some times our job is to water them, other times we harvest, and every once in a while you get to watch what you planted grow into something beautiful. Today I saw a picture of one of my youth Lorenzo, who turned his life around. He went from a trouble youth to a U.S. Marine. I got to watch be part of his life throughout this transition and he has been an inspiration to me. I witnessed him overcome all of the challenges and obstacles in his way. Then I ran into two young adults Flerida Ayala Valenzuela and Francisco Ayala, who I had the privilege to working with back in 2002- 2004 at a Youth Intervention program I volunteered at. Today I got to meet their precious little son, who they are doing an exceptional job raising. I was overwhelmed with joy. I thought of how great our God is and how grateful I am to have had the opportunity and honor to know theses now adults for so many years. I think of all the kids of have impacted my life. Kids I have gotten to watch travel their own journey, and find God's purpose for their lives. Watching them walk into greatness is such an incredible experience. James Cardenas watching you chase God as you develop such a powerful testimony has blessed me beyond words. Then there is Laylanie Pinchem and Juno Starko who I have been able to watch turn a "job" into an opportunity to change lives and share the love of Christ on a daily basis. There passion and dedication at such a young age drives me to be a better person. I am just overwhelmed with a sense of gratefulness and pride in the young adults God has put in my life.
Saturday, February 6, 2016
Thursday, February 4, 2016
Today my classroom received a surprise visit from Channel 5 News. An old friend Pablo Beltran nominated me for Channel fives pay it forward and they graciously donated $500 for our van. There are so many deserving families who have needs in our community. I'm so thankful for everyone who is supported us in trying to make the world a little more accessible for my David.