Wednesday, March 30, 2016

If every time Satan attempts to knock you down, you get right back up and use your circumstance as a platform to testify of God's glory and grace, Satan will eventually realize you're not worth it to him!

Just remember that Satan only has the platform we give him. God is always with you even in the mist of storms that make him feel so far away. Trust him and see him and everything because he is there!.

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

It has been one of those days…

Just the thought of the things I need to accomplish this week has me extremely overwhelmed. Lesson plans, IEP's, coordinating field trips, school fundraisers, student council, David's SSI, child support, guardianship paperwork, bills, banking, student loans, yard work, household chores, car wash, grocery shopping, laundry, taxes, medical appointments, scheduling dental work for both David and I, and the list goes on. Once my book is published, the first thing I'm going to do is hire a personal assistant!

When all else fails... Stop, take a breath, and then make Easter baskets for your kids, while listening to worship, and watching videos of David and your students. I know how to cheer myself up!

Friday, March 18, 2016

I prayed for favor as I walked into the Social Security office this morning. Not only did I pray for favor but then I stood on the word of God, faithfully believing that favor is exactly what I would get. 

I still struggle every time I have to walk into an agency that requires me to report to them about how I care for my child, manage my home, and my finances.  It feels as if you have to check your pride and dignity at the door.  For us, it's also a reminder that David's father chooses not to help or participate in his life, making the load even heavier for me.

The interview did not go as I had planned, but I am confident it went as God had planned.   At one point The woman conducting the interview even looked at me with tears in her eyes and said "I'm sorry it's a system we forced to work with, not that we all agree with it".  The conversation led us into discussion about advocacy and the importance for families to not give up and find their voices. I shared pictures of David's smile with her and I got to share my testimony of how and why I decided to become a Special Educator. 

By the end of the meeting I knew Jesus was there with us. I also knew that my anxiety and emotions are more about how out-of-control so many relevant factors in my life are right now.
Reflecting I realize that I don't need control because God has a much greater handle on my future  than I ever will. Undoubtably I know that God has a much greater plan that I just can't yet understand.   

So although things don't look like they ended up in our favor. I know they did!

Wednesday, March 16, 2016

Sharing Love is the best way to heal!  One year ago I went on a adventure with several Hope kid families. We built the house for this incredible family that stole my heart! I decided to return with a few teacher friends and some school supplies.  Once again, I'm leaving with so much more than I brought!  In one year the Jimenez Family has made that house that was built for them by Hopekids and 1 Mission and have not only made it a home, they are also using it to teach the local children's gardening, art, and most importantly about Jesus!   People think small kind gestures don't create a large impact, but the truth is they do. This woman took that blessing and has used it to bless and entire neighborhood! If those neighborhood children also share that love and knowledge with others, think of how great of an impact, a small sacrifice on the part of others, had on creating such great change for the kingdom of Christ!  Make a difference it really does matter!

To top it off I got to do it with the reason behind my smile. The person you inspires me to be all I can be. The person who taught me to love like Jesus, my son!

"6 I planted the seed in your hearts, and Apollos watered it, but it was God who made it grow. 7 It’s not important who does the planting, or who does the watering. What’s important is that God makes the seed grow. 8 The one who plants and the one who waters work together with the same purpose. And both will be rewarded for their own hard work." (1 Corinthians 3:6-8)

Friday, March 11, 2016

The comfort in his voice

My post is probably all over the place as has been my mind this week.  I am just trying to process life right now, real and in the moment. 

Today I felt so many different emotions. I was sad, angry, confused, frustrated, and anxious all bottled inside me.  My week has been emotionally draining.  First to find out that our beautiful Jessica when home to be with Jesus, then I found out my brother dodge the cancer bullet.   This week we also found out that our district is in a budget deficit and that positions will be eliminating which might impact our school, which is like a family to me, and when I thought the week was finally over I found out that I tested positive for Influenza A.  I am a big girl and am not worried about surviving the flu, but can’t bring this illness to my son who is fragile. 

This is in addition to my normal concerns about losing David, my students, my mom, my dear friend who just had to put her son on a hospice plan. My heart has still not stopped aching for the last parents I had to watch say goodbye to their child.

So many thoughts and emotions flooded my mind like a tornado.  I decided to breath and seek God.  I pulled away because I was angry, but I was unconsciously creating distance at a time that I need God the most!

I needed silence, but all around me there was so much noise.  When I listened closely I could hear the voice of God softly whispering, “it is going to be OK, the best is yet to come, you will understand one day”.  I am calmed by his presence and know that despite all the loss in our lives right now he is right there with me.  I AM NOT ALONE!  WE ARE NOT ALONE!

I'm going to praise Jesus through the storm because that's the only way I'm going to survive this! I still see Jesus in all of this. I still feel his presence as he continuously reassures me that everything is going to be OK.  

The hope in our struggles is that when you're at your most vulnerable, that is when Jesus comes to the rescue.  Struggles are when you will have some of your most intimate experiences with God, if you allow the opportunity.

No matter how much life hurts right now, I know that God will use these moments in our lives to prove to the world how real he is!  A good life is not only about having great experiences; it is about finding God in EVERY experience he blesses you with. 

I know it much easier said than done and these words are a reminder to myself... just trust and stand on his word.
28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28

Thursday, March 10, 2016

In addition to academics, I try to teach my kids kindness. I feel like that's one of the most valuable lessons they can learn. Today we packed backpacks to send Mexico. I explained to them that the supplies were going to children who have much less than we do. As we are going through our school supplies, I found some items I had purchased to put in their Easter baskets. I made it their choice if we could include those in the kids backpacks.   Each and every child in my classroom agreed to sacrifice their Easter present for a child in need! They even went through prize box and donated our stuff animals.

Tuesday, March 8, 2016

Little did we know that this would be the last finish line Jessica Dunn would cross here on this Earth.  Her next finish line would be a finish line we all hope to cross one day, but on that leaves an aching hole in the lives of those left behind.  On Friday morning Jessica crossed her final finish line as she ran through the gates of Heaven.  You will be forever missed and running will never be the same without you! #teambestbuddiesaz

Thursday, March 3, 2016

There is nothing more precious than children's laughter!

It's been a long week with testing and our schedules being flipped around, so the kids are a little restless. Today during reading they started laughing uncontrollably. I believe that laughter is so healing and I love seeing my students so joyful so it was hard for me to tell them to stop. We decided to seize the moment and run with it. I made a deal with kids. I told them that if they could get through reading and learn I would give them 10 minutes at the end of class to put on a comedy show. Each kid got to go up and be the comedian.  
Thought I'd share the laughs with you! #conchoslove

Tuesday, March 1, 2016

It is official...  In two weeks I will be returning to vista some very special families who forever touched my life 
almost a year ago.  
A house of love built by families who choose to keep their hope in the Lord, although their children battle life threatening illnesses, Hope Kids. Together we built a home for an amazing family and community that I fell in love with in Puerto Paenasco.

    Little did I know that mixing cement and hammering nails for three days would be so life changing.  

Just remembering the experiences brings me such great joy.  I am going to be bringing the children in this neighborhood literature in Spanish, books, and school supplies.  I will be also be collecting clothing and toys over the next week to bring if anyone has any Spring cleaning to do.