Tuesday, June 20, 2017
My David gently reminds me of this often. His spirits slay my giants. Without effort, David reminds me to stay present, reflective, and focused on Jesus. His giggle is a sweet reminder to intentionally experience joy. And his SMILE... it keeps me going and it is a constant reminder that there is nothing in this world that could possibly be too big for our God to overcome!
Friday, June 2, 2017
To be honest I went back-and-forth about posting this post. I am a tough girl who is still working on processing my emotions and becoming more comfortable and willing to be vulnerable. Today I'm going to step out in faith and be obedient to God's tug on my heart.
Maybe someone needs this today.
After-all, It is because of the obedience of others, that I was able to see God in my current situation. To all of my faithful friends who have shared words, laughs, prayers, wine, and/or support to encourage me over the last few months, THANK YOU for making a difference! Grief and change have taken me on a wild ride here lately, but I know when the ride ends I will be right where God wants me!
Over the last few days I have felt broken, lost, and even mad at God at times. I knew he was there as he is in all things, but I couldn't feel him when I needed him the most, which made me feel even more angry and hopeless.
I knew the loss that I was experiencing was far beyond my own understanding. I also understood that, that's the way God intended it to be, but I still found myself haunted by all of the questions racing through my mind, questions like "WHY?".
Over the last few days God has used a sequence of events and encounters to reassure me. At a time when God seemed so far away and I felt too broken to even know how to find him, he met me right where I was at.
Once the voices of fear, doubt, and defeat had been silenced, I could hear God gently encourage me to get back up, to rely on him for my hope and comfort. In the mist of my battle with grief, God reminded me that no matter how things might feel in the present moment, God has not left me behind or abandoned me, nor will he ever!
When I woke up this morning, life still hurt. My troubles had not disappeared and my losses had not been restored, but my hope and comfort were.
Today I made the conscious decision to trust him even though my life still feels like a mess. That first step is always the hardest, it requires trust, courage, and bravery. Once I found the strength and courage to take that first step, I was afforded the opportunity to gain a new perspective of the road I am currently traveling, a Kingdom perspective. A perspective that inspires me to continue to move forward, putting one foot in front of the other, paving the way for others.
That's the incredible thing about the God we serve. Our willingness to invest a small amount of trust in God, not only increases the value of our "Kingdom" stock, the investment also ensures a risk free, guaranteed return.
Praise to God for a Living Hope
"3 Praise be to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ! In his great mercy he has given us new birth into a living hope through the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead, 4 and into an inheritance that can never perish, spoil or fade. This inheritance is kept in heaven for you, 5 who through faith are shielded by God’s power until the coming of the salvation that is ready to be revealed in the last time. 6 In all this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials" (1 Peter 1:3-6).