I'm feeling awful, overwhelmed, and discouraged.  It's official, the storm has hit!  I have MRSA, I'm just recovering from oral surgery and bronchitis, David is sick, and my anxiety is through the roof right now. 

That being said, I know I'll get through this and I'm pretty excited, because we all know that after the rain comes the rainbow!

So BRING IT .. because my God is bigger than any situation or crisis and a few tears shed is well worth the opportunity to draw closer to God and grow.  

Thanks for all the prayers and well wishes!  ;)

MRSA It is! The doctor said it was a good thing we caught it in time before it spread. I'm supposed to return if it gets worse with the next 48 hours. Please pray that strong antibiotics are enough to do the trick!

I was hoping for something other than a staff infection for my birthday!  LOL

On Saturday I got bit by something.  Throughout the week it has morphed into a big ugly wound on my chest. I didn't want to go to urgent care because my insurance doesn't kick in until September 1st, but it looks like I'm going to have to bite the bullet and go to Urgent Care after work today because the whole left side of my body is aching. 

A few years ago I got MRSA (staff infection) for Christmas.  I sure hoping I don't get MRSA for my birthday cause it wasn't a present I enjoyed!   Lol

Aww...  One of the questions asked in  youth group was "Who is your superhero?" and one of the answers was "David".   Mommy couldn't agree more!!!

* I love you David,  you make me the proudest mom in the world!*

What if....

This word hit home for me.  I've spent countless hours wondering “what if”. “What if my son David could walk?”,  “What if my father was alive to watch me reach my dreams?”, or  “What if I had a partner to help me through this journey?”.  I am learning that spending my time and energy wondering about what could have, should have been, only preoccupies me and prevents me from embracing what God has already and continues to do in my life. 

FOOD FOR THOUGHT! 

What if… we allowed God to work his plan in our lives without questioning him?  What if… God needs us right where we are to move in mighty ways?  What if… God is just waiting for us to move out of the way so he can move? 

TODAY’S SCRIPTURE

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.”

(2 Timothy 1:7, NLT)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria

God’s desire is that we continually progress, that we reach higher heights and go to new levels in Him. Oftentimes, as soon as we make the decision to step out in faith and obey God, the enemy brings in fear to try to stop us. He’ll bring thoughts like, “What if you fail? What are other people going to think? You don’t have what it takes.” He’ll do his best to use fear to try to convince us to shrink back and stay where we are.

The Bible says that fear is a spirit. It plays on our emotions and holds us back. But the good news is that we have power over the spirit of fear! The Bible says that perfect love casts out all fear. When we receive God’s perfect love, we will have confidence about the future because we know His plans are for our good. I’ve heard it said that fear is an acronym for False Evidence Appearing Real. Understand that fear is a lie. Don’t buy the lie. Instead, choose to believe God’s Word and receive His love so that you can overcome fear and move forward into the blessings He has prepared for you!

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A PRAYER FOR TODAY

Father, thank You for giving me power, love and a sound mind. I open my heart to You and receive Your perfect love. Fill me with Your confidence and assurance to embrace everything You have for me in Jesus’ name. Amen.

I just need to vent... Fighting with insurance companies and doctors for routine care can sometimes become an additional full-time job!  David has been on the same seizure meds from most two years but now there's a struggle between two insurance companies on who should pay for what services.  That should not affect our family or David's  care but of course it does.  

I've been trying to resolve the issue since early Wednesday with no avail.  Unfortunately they did not want to refill David's seizure meds until he was seen by his Neurologist which was scheduled for 22 August, but the appointment was canceled because we are having to fight over which clinic David should be seen at and who should pay.  

Having to worry about David seizing is very traumatic for me since his last seizure was the start of a battle that almost cost my angel his life.

The fact that I'm fighting with Doctors and insurance companies who are solely concerned about how they're going to get paid well I'm worried about how to keep my son alive and well has me in an emotional uproar! 

THE BATTLE SEEMS NEVER-ENDING!!!

It's funny how God always knows exactly what you need exactly when you need it... I've been very overwhelmed lately and feeling pretty incompetent.  I'm struggling with mixed emotions loving my new students and missing my old ones.   My To Do List is 10 pages long and the minute I get close to finishing it another list evolves. 

That being said, by Monday I was already feeling burnt out and discouraged.  I got on my knees and cried out to God  and by Wednesday I was reaffirmed and able to gain my peace again.  I am so thankful that I serve such a loving and faithful God!

One of my best friends is now teaching the seventh graders that I taught in fifth grade.  She just told them that we are best friends and they are very intrigued. It's hilarious to hear about the stories they tell Ms. Mann from their perspective.  

Especially the ones that  got in trouble.  She says they do a pretty good Ms. C interpretation! LOL

Happy Thursday almost Friday :)  A random Campuzano moment...  So one of my student had to  use the restroom during specials.  Right as he goes into the boys bathroom they announce a lockdown (not a test). I leave my other students in specials in the computer lab with the computer teacher and run to grab them from the restroom, but unfortunately he had just begun to go number two and couldn't force himself to go any quicker than he was already going.  We ended up having to get locked into the boys bathroom.  

All I could think is what it is my karma that I'm going to be stuck locked in a boys restroom  with poop and no AC.  Once it was over and I was reunited with my other students  all I could do is laugh  and think about the stories I will be able to tell my grandkids one day!  

After the fact, that same student told me I was the greatest greatest greatest greatest greatest teacher he's ever had in his life ;). It doesn't matter that he's only in first grade, it still made me feel special! Lol

Moral of the story... it pays to take one for the team because your students will love you forever!

Highlight of my day..

I'm trying to teach my students simple sign language so throughout the day I taught them a few signs, One of which was beautiful where you take your hand and circle it over your face.

After school ended the secretary told me that one of my little ones went up to her and said "I like your face" as she circled her hand around her face. 

The secretary didn't realize that what my student was trying to tell her was that she was beautiful. 

One of those proud moments teachers live for!!!

There have been some unexpected changes at work that I have been struggling with, but they are changes out of my control.  So I am leaving them at Gods feet  praying that he will either change the situation to give me the strength to handle it! ;) 

God has never failed us!

*I am feeling faithful and hopeful despite what things look like right now*

Here is the link to The interview that Fox 10 news aired on David going to the Bruno Mars concert. 

http://www.myfoxphoenix.com/story/22985378/2013/08/01/bruno-mars-music-helps-boy-recover-from-30-surgeries

One thing that did not make it to the news clip was that above all else all the glory for David's miraculous recovery must be given to our Lord and Savior Jesus Christ!!!