I know most of you have wondered what I've been going through lately and have not fully understood... Because the matter is not about me I have tried to be very considerate of the information I have disclosed online. I can't say much more than, my family is in the midst of a major crisis! As hectic as planning David's party was it was a great distraction from facing the realities of the things going on in my life.  Now that the party is over, reflecting on the party has been  a great reminder of all the love and support David and I have been so blessed with! Lately it has seemed as if my world has been spiraling out of control in every aspect of my life.  God knows me and generally it is hard for me to give my burdens to him until I can take it no longer! We'll I'm there & I surrender Lord!

My dearest David, there is

                                               no humble way to explain what your life means,

Or a simple way for people to understand how my disabled child has taught me so many astonishing things.

Unconditional love is an emotion I thought I would never know,

Until one day in my tummy, you began to grow.

But shortly after you were born I began to understand,

That God specifically chose YOU to be my special little man.

So fragile and frail we grew together as a team,

Just one look into your eyes and I knew what the term unconditional love was supposed to mean.

Who was to know that life would take us to such mysterious places,

When it seemed that there was no light to guide us through, your spirit kept a smile on our faces.

We have climbed mountains high and seen valleys low,

Yet through each one of our challenges, together we would grow.

With a mommy's broken heart and a child's broken body,

We courageously faced the world, proving that we could be broken by nothing or conquered by nobody.

We have traveled a journey that's been long and hard,

Even in my darkest moments you've continued to be my guiding star.

You have been my motivation, strength, courage, inspiration, and biggest fan,

It is you my sweet angel, I give credit for who I am.

A Hero defined as... "a man of distinguished courage or ability, admired for his brave deeds and noble qualities" is how I describe you my son,

A precious sweet child whose spirits & life prove Gods work in us is never done!

So as we continue on to climb our next mountain, I'm ready to go,

Because no matter where this journey might lead us, I know that always and forever by my side will be you, my HERO!

Happy 17th Birthday My Super Hero!!!

We'll my mom will be heading to Spain today, to start her new life!  I want to be happy for her, but all I can think about is putting my father on a plane & never seeing him alive again.  Now that the day has come,  this whole ordeal is making me much more anxious than I had anticipated!  ;(. 

I hate goodbyes almost as much as I hate PTSD!!!!

On October 7th around noon, while at Iguassu falls, Brazil I was greeted by a butterfly.  It land on my hand & stay there for at least 15 minutes.  When it was time to go to our next destination I tried to blow this beautiful butterfly off my hand but it refused to leave.  Eventually I had to shake the butterfly off my hand.

That evening when when we returned to our hotel I got a message that a friend of
an incredible man of God, went home to be with Jesus.  The message came in around noon and that is the approximate time I was greeted by the butterfly.

God brings us peace in different ways.  To think that just maybe God sent me one of his beautiful creations to comfort me in the fact that it was time for such a special person to return to him, did comfort my soul!

I pray that God brings peace & comfort to anyone and everyone who has been effected by the loss of such an inspiring, caring, & faithful man, leaving us way too soon. May we all gain perfect understanding of the Lords mysterious plan one day.

God will continue to shine through you even from heaven Rolando Luna!!!

Blessed to have had the opportunity to travel with such amazing people.  In 7 days I have: been in two continents and two hemispheres, spent three nights in moving transportation, been in 6 airports, and to 3 amazing Brazilian cities with a countless number of the most amazing people imaginable (the Hoyt family which have been such a blessing in my life). Some are old friends, some are new friends but all are now forever friends. I also had the privilege of attending the most beautiful wedding I've ever seen! Congratulations James and Mariana!!!  

* I couldn't have put it in better words Christina*

So we are in the US, we survived a 2 hour flight to Rio with a 5 hour layover, a 9 hour flight to NC in which we survived customs, but Christina Hoyt got interrogated for trying to salvage her air plain snack box,  we are now jumping on a plain to TX hoping we can find an open flight to Phx.  I'm feeling so close yet so far away from squeezing my Dayday!, 

Jesus I know you were bigger than any situation any diagnosis and any trial,  When I forget how powerful and faithful you are I will always let David smile remind me!!!

Calling all prayer warriors...

When David was sick I cried out to God for a miracle and many of my FB friends stood with us in prayer.  God granted David the miracle we cried out for. I'm asking all of my friends to take a minute and say a prayer for a friend of mine that needs God's healing touch right now!  May God hear our cries loud and clear.  David went from nearly dying to being fully recovered, alive and well, and blessing the world with his smile!!   I will never doubt my God and I will never loose my FAITH!!!

The kingdom can not afford to lose the soul!!!

There is a fine line between questioning God and seeking for answers. My current situation is not ideal as far as work but maybe the lesson learned in all of this is to teach me to seek him for the things I cannot understand and learn to be content with situations out of my control until he gives me perfect situation.  

I'm feeling awful, overwhelmed, and discouraged.  It's official, the storm has hit!  I have MRSA, I'm just recovering from oral surgery and bronchitis, David is sick, and my anxiety is through the roof right now. 

That being said, I know I'll get through this and I'm pretty excited, because we all know that after the rain comes the rainbow!

So BRING IT .. because my God is bigger than any situation or crisis and a few tears shed is well worth the opportunity to draw closer to God and grow.  

Thanks for all the prayers and well wishes!  ;)

MRSA It is! The doctor said it was a good thing we caught it in time before it spread. I'm supposed to return if it gets worse with the next 48 hours. Please pray that strong antibiotics are enough to do the trick!

I was hoping for something other than a staff infection for my birthday!  LOL

On Saturday I got bit by something.  Throughout the week it has morphed into a big ugly wound on my chest. I didn't want to go to urgent care because my insurance doesn't kick in until September 1st, but it looks like I'm going to have to bite the bullet and go to Urgent Care after work today because the whole left side of my body is aching. 

A few years ago I got MRSA (staff infection) for Christmas.  I sure hoping I don't get MRSA for my birthday cause it wasn't a present I enjoyed!   Lol

Aww...  One of the questions asked in  youth group was "Who is your superhero?" and one of the answers was "David".   Mommy couldn't agree more!!!

* I love you David,  you make me the proudest mom in the world!*

What if....

This word hit home for me.  I've spent countless hours wondering “what if”. “What if my son David could walk?”,  “What if my father was alive to watch me reach my dreams?”, or  “What if I had a partner to help me through this journey?”.  I am learning that spending my time and energy wondering about what could have, should have been, only preoccupies me and prevents me from embracing what God has already and continues to do in my life. 

FOOD FOR THOUGHT! 

What if… we allowed God to work his plan in our lives without questioning him?  What if… God needs us right where we are to move in mighty ways?  What if… God is just waiting for us to move out of the way so he can move? 

TODAY’S SCRIPTURE

“For God has not given us a spirit of fear and timidity, but of power, love, and self-discipline.”

(2 Timothy 1:7, NLT)

TODAY’S WORD from Joel and Victoria

God’s desire is that we continually progress, that we reach higher heights and go to new levels in Him. Oftentimes, as soon as we make the decision to step out in faith and obey God, the enemy brings in fear to try to stop us. He’ll bring thoughts like, “What if you fail? What are other people going to think? You don’t have what it takes.” He’ll do his best to use fear to try to convince us to shrink back and stay where we are.

The Bible says that fear is a spirit. It plays on our emotions and holds us back. But the good news is that we have power over the spirit of fear! The Bible says that perfect love casts out all fear. When we receive God’s perfect love, we will have confidence about the future because we know His plans are for our good. I’ve heard it said that fear is an acronym for False Evidence Appearing Real. Understand that fear is a lie. Don’t buy the lie. Instead, choose to believe God’s Word and receive His love so that you can overcome fear and move forward into the blessings He has prepared for you!

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A PRAYER FOR TODAY

Father, thank You for giving me power, love and a sound mind. I open my heart to You and receive Your perfect love. Fill me with Your confidence and assurance to embrace everything You have for me in Jesus’ name. Amen.

I just need to vent... Fighting with insurance companies and doctors for routine care can sometimes become an additional full-time job!  David has been on the same seizure meds from most two years but now there's a struggle between two insurance companies on who should pay for what services.  That should not affect our family or David's  care but of course it does.  

I've been trying to resolve the issue since early Wednesday with no avail.  Unfortunately they did not want to refill David's seizure meds until he was seen by his Neurologist which was scheduled for 22 August, but the appointment was canceled because we are having to fight over which clinic David should be seen at and who should pay.  

Having to worry about David seizing is very traumatic for me since his last seizure was the start of a battle that almost cost my angel his life.

The fact that I'm fighting with Doctors and insurance companies who are solely concerned about how they're going to get paid well I'm worried about how to keep my son alive and well has me in an emotional uproar! 

THE BATTLE SEEMS NEVER-ENDING!!!

It's funny how God always knows exactly what you need exactly when you need it... I've been very overwhelmed lately and feeling pretty incompetent.  I'm struggling with mixed emotions loving my new students and missing my old ones.   My To Do List is 10 pages long and the minute I get close to finishing it another list evolves. 

That being said, by Monday I was already feeling burnt out and discouraged.  I got on my knees and cried out to God  and by Wednesday I was reaffirmed and able to gain my peace again.  I am so thankful that I serve such a loving and faithful God!

One of my best friends is now teaching the seventh graders that I taught in fifth grade.  She just told them that we are best friends and they are very intrigued. It's hilarious to hear about the stories they tell Ms. Mann from their perspective.  

Especially the ones that  got in trouble.  She says they do a pretty good Ms. C interpretation! LOL

Happy Thursday almost Friday :)  A random Campuzano moment...  So one of my student had to  use the restroom during specials.  Right as he goes into the boys bathroom they announce a lockdown (not a test). I leave my other students in specials in the computer lab with the computer teacher and run to grab them from the restroom, but unfortunately he had just begun to go number two and couldn't force himself to go any quicker than he was already going.  We ended up having to get locked into the boys bathroom.  

All I could think is what it is my karma that I'm going to be stuck locked in a boys restroom  with poop and no AC.  Once it was over and I was reunited with my other students  all I could do is laugh  and think about the stories I will be able to tell my grandkids one day!  

After the fact, that same student told me I was the greatest greatest greatest greatest greatest teacher he's ever had in his life ;). It doesn't matter that he's only in first grade, it still made me feel special! Lol

Moral of the story... it pays to take one for the team because your students will love you forever!

Highlight of my day..

I'm trying to teach my students simple sign language so throughout the day I taught them a few signs, One of which was beautiful where you take your hand and circle it over your face.

After school ended the secretary told me that one of my little ones went up to her and said "I like your face" as she circled her hand around her face. 

The secretary didn't realize that what my student was trying to tell her was that she was beautiful. 

One of those proud moments teachers live for!!!

There have been some unexpected changes at work that I have been struggling with, but they are changes out of my control.  So I am leaving them at Gods feet  praying that he will either change the situation to give me the strength to handle it! ;) 

God has never failed us!

*I am feeling faithful and hopeful despite what things look like right now*