When you live your life this way, it can make it difficult to understand those who don't. Don't try and get on their level to understand.  Their lives will speak for themselves, all we can do is do our best to be our best. I strive for the acceptance of one person (JESUS) and I already have that.

It is amazing what happens when you quit chasing change and start chasing God!

I am beginning to notice that every time I go through a trial in my life the end result is a better ME. Through my brokenness and trials I have learned to cherish life and be content with what God has already given me.

For many years the burden of David’s health has plagued me.  I wanted more than anything in the world for my son to be healthy.  Naturally I longed for that but, after almost losing him three years ago I realized that I have a perfect child and our purpose on this earth is being fulfilled with our lives just as they are. 

As I have gotten older I have longed to be young again. There are days that lifting David and caring for him takes all the energy I have.  Recently after a cancer scare I realized how truly blessed I am that I even have the ability and strength to do what I do.  Everyday now, I count my blessings and thank God that he has given me strength and resilience to persevere. 

Once I hit my 30’s I felt this pressure of what my life should look like and be.  I had pursued an education and accomplished that, I own a home, have a great career, yet still felt inadequate because in my mind my fairytale ending included a prince charming and babies.   I was not allowing myself to enjoy the incredible life and accomplishments I had been blessed to experience due to the fact that I was placing my value in my marital status among other things. 

It is remarkable how God teaches me some of the most crucial life lessons through brokenness and situations far from ideal.  After an unfortunate experience with someone I thought could be a potential life partner I realized that my error was expecting anything or anyone but God to increase my value.   In this case I found that when I got what I thought I wanted and needed it felt as if my value was decreasing. 

I realized I was chasing my dreams and not Gods dreams for me.   Through my shattered dreams I realized that I don’t need health, youth, a partner, or anything temporary on this earth to complete me.  God has promised that “He who started a good work will be faithful to complete it” and I will stand on his promises. 

For the first time ever in my life the only thing I am chasing is Jesus.  Instead of seeking a partner or perfection,  I  now seek the Lord.  As a result I can now clearly see how God has abundantly blessed us.  How he has protected us and allowed unfortunate circumstances and encounters to build character and instill faith in our lives.   I am no longer driven by my desire for more.  I am learning to love myself and be content with who God has created me to be.  I am discovering how to love life just as it is, in the moment, regardless of the obstacles in our path. 

So often I would become frustrated with life when it seemed to take me down a road I did not plan on traveling.  Through God’s perfect understanding I now see that some of those roads were necessary to get me to my final destination.  A place of peace, comfort, healing, and the best of all…  The presence of my Lord and Savior!

Embrace the challenges in your life because if you allow them to, they can make you a better you. 

Another sweet reminder of how faithful God has been to us!!!  Although this was the start of what would be one of the most trying times of our lives, this was also the last time David ever had a seizure. He is been seizure free for three years today!

One of my students reads his first word!

This is what makes being a Special Education Teacher so rewarding.

I just got overly excited about receiving my shipment of Mod Podge!!!  First day all week I haven't worked +10.   It was worth it because now I'm enjoying my evening winding down with David making Valentine treat bags. 😍 I think I'm officially old and loving it!!!!

Some of the hardest yet most rewarding decisions I have ever had to make in my life have entailed choosing to not waist time, energy, and/or emotions on people or things not worth my time, energy, and/or emotions.  :)

Finding the strengthen to put yourself first and patiently wait for what you are worth is a virtue worth developing.  Never settle for anything or anyone less than the best God has for you!   

Lots of prayers needed today... Just received a call from my mom and the reason I have not heard from her in a couple of weeks is because she was in the infirmary with pneumonia. She's recovering and getting better, but please say a special prayer for her recovery.  Also sending lots of prayers for peace and comfort to the Lord family, as they lay there sweet angel Mia to rest today.  

Every day of life is just another opportunity for Gods glory to shine through a circumstance.

David is officially mine forever... 

Guardianship granted!  1/29/2015

Never loose Faith

No matter what life throws my way, what challenges I have to endure, or how different my plans might differ from the Lord's plan for me, the one thing that will never change is my aspirations.  What happens to us on this earth is temporary and does not matter.  What does matter is how you face life.  Throughout your journey make a conscious decision to face life with the same faith, when times are good and when times are not so pleasant.  That is one of few choices we have in what happens to us on this earth.  I choose to aspire to be Christ-like in everything I do and everything I go through.  

#neverloosefaith  #Godwillneverleaveyouorforsakeyou

Guess whose amazing students made it on Fox 10 News today?

http://www.fox10phoenix.com/Clip/11033484/cory-goes-back-to-school-ignacio-conchos-school#.VLafgMNLd_8.yahoomail

2014 was filled with a lot of hard lessons learned for me, but they were lessons learned nonetheless. They have prepared me for 2015, which I will enter stronger, wiser, and closer to God than I was the year before. May God bless you all as we ring in the new year. I still believe... THE BEST IS YET TO COME!!!

As I was worshiping God this morning All You've Ever Wanted by Casting Crowns came on.  

I was chasing healing when I'd been made well

I was fighting battles when You conquered hell

Living free but from a prison cell

Lord, I lay it down today

So I'll stop living off of how I feel

And start standing on Your truth revealed

Jesus is my strength, my shield

And He will never fail me

No more chains, I've been set free

No more fighting battles You've won for me

Now in Christ, I stand complete

I needed to hear these words today.  I refuse to be that broken little girl who waisted way to many years bound to the pains of my past.  Today I take a stand, I refuse to get caught up in life's challenges, fighting a battle that God has already won for me.  A price that an innocent man paid for me, for my sins, for my freedom.  God graciously gave his life so that I could live life abundantly, and I will honor his life and mine by doing so!  My prayer today is that those who have not gained that understanding will one day feel God's warm embrace as I have. 

I will not dwell on the past, nor focus on my current circumstance.  I can't afford to focus on anything but Jesus and the blood he shed for me.  I choose to get back up however many times necessary and live my life as a testament of God's faithfulness and grace.

Many blessing to you and yours this CHRISTmas!

    Our first Christmas, where our journey began!

                                

Sometimes the most difficult part of this season for me is making the conscious decision to focus on the amazing blessing we do have, and not the things that have not yet be placed in our life.  It is extremely difficult to make that choice when my hearts longs to have the typical traditional Christmas.  A Holiday filled with family, health, and peace.   I am wishing I had at least my parents to share CHRISTmas with, but that is just not what life is for us right now.  At the moment I am holding on to the memory of my dad and the random 3 minute phone calls I get from my mom from prison.   It can make this month an extremely lonely time, but I know I have been blessed with the best kid a mom could ask for, a great church,  a spectacular life, and the opportunity to allow God to fill the void in my life!





This year CHRISTmas has come and gone and I have struggled to find time to breath and take it all in.  We will not be spending the Holidays the way I anticipated we would, but will be doing things exactly how God had planned!  David and I have decided to stay in for the Holidays. No travels, no outings, no running away from life. David is coming down with a cold and this paranoid mommy rather spend Christmas eve at home caring for him then end up having to spend Christmas day in the Hospital. We are going to have some Jesus Rehab while enjoying hot coco and Vitamin C.

I am so thankful for all the many blessings in our lives! Even the situations that did not or do not always feel so magical at times. Each one of those situations has led David and I right to where we are, and that is exactly where God wants us to be. 

Always remember that although life hurts sometimes and things happen that are beyond our understanding and/or control, one thing we can control is the choices we make to embrace every single opportunity granted to us.  Today I choose to focus on the extraordinary ways God has transformed our lives through the disappointments.  I will focus on the understanding that somethings are not meant to be understood, they are meant to help us grow into the person God intended us to be.  

May God richly bless you and yours with a clear understanding of how majestical he is and may you spend your Holidays reminded of the true reason for the season. 

 Our 18th Christmas, where our journey continues!

I am excited to announce that David will be participating in Arizona Rock 'n' Roll Marathon on January 18^th.  I would love for all of our Team David fans and supporters to share in this extraordinary event with us.

David is going to have the opportunity to run/roll with a partner runner. There's an organization of people who have decided to sponsor a child to share their legs with.  ;)   The thought of David having the opportunity to participate in a marathon is fun and exciting, but more than anything else the mere thought of watching my child roll past the finish line brings tears of joy to my eyes. 

As David has transitioned in to adulthood I have had to come to terms with the fact that there are some dreams I have had for us that need to be laid to rest.  It has been an extremely emotional process that has been difficult for most people to understand.   Every mother naturally wants to watch their child walk or hit milestones that they watch all of their friends children hit. At some point as the mother of a special needs child, you learn to set those disappointments aside so that you can embrace the journey you have been chosen for. 

That being said, it does not make the process any less heart wrenching for a mother.   You eventually learn to focus on all the amazing things your child can do.  But there are some dreams that are hard to let go of, so you tuck those ones far away so that they don’t haunt you.  Watching David miss out on typical experiences has been the hardest part of this process for me.  As his mother I want nothing more than to give my bright eyed, courageous, hero all the opportunities that children with out medical challenges have, but some days I don’t feel too successful. 

There are some experiences you don’t think you'll be afforded the opportunity to see here on this earth.  Surprisingly sometimes you are!  To me this experience is God gently whispering to me that he hears the cries of my heart. God is reminding me that although reaching our dreams might not look as though I thought they would, God is still granting us our dreams in a different form.  Watching my child participate in a marathon and roll past a finish line will be a dream come true for us!!!!

THANK YOU RUNNERS AND BEST BUDDIES!!!!!   Thank you for giving us a gift that money could never buy, an opportunity to see my child do something that I never thought I'd get to see him do. Thank you for putting a smile on this mommies face.  When you have to go without you learn to appreciate the little things.  In the process you gain an understanding of the true value of such cherished experiences.  A cherished gift from you to us!  THANK YOU ;)

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David got served!!!  Lol  Our guardianship hearing will be on January 29th.

My Dearest David,

 I'm still not sure what to think about you being an adult tomorrow. Part of me feels so extremely blessed that we made it this far in our journey, but there is another part of me wants to hold on to my little boy forever.  

Where did the time go and where do I begin?

Over the last 18 years you've transformed my life in so many ways!  You have empowered me, motivated me, inspired me, taught me to love others and myself, and above all else molded me into the woman of God I am today. I was on the self-destructive path when God sent you to me. Although to the outside world having a medically fragile child at 16 seemed as if my life had taken a devastating turn for the worst, in all reality God knew I needed you to save me from myself and gave me meaning and purpose.

You have taught me the valuable lesson that beauty is in the eye of the beholder.   My perspective is forever changed and I now understand that unfortunate circumstance often offer incredible opportunities to prove to ourselves and others how strong we really are.   In every aspect of my life you're the man behind my success and God knew I needed you just as you are just when he sent you to me. 

I needed you to push me, to teach me that there was more to life to live for,  I needed you to help me realized that the pain of this earth is only temporary and that my purpose here is far greater than the pain and obstacles this world has thrown our way.  You are the reason I found God, the reason I made a conscious choice to serve others, the reason I push myself through college because I knew you deserved it and in the process I realized I deserved it too. 

In the last 18 years we've encountered many obstacles which all eventually required us to rely fully on God.  We survived near death experiences, 31 brain surgeries, unforeseen tragedies, seizures, and heartache, but through it all that we've always had each other!

So as my one and only little man becomes an adult I want to say THANK YOU!  Thank you for changing my life and turning my world into the most amazing adventure I could have ever asked for.   Thank you for helping me grow into the woman and mother that you always needed me to be and patiently cheering me on.   So as we venture into the nest chapter of our lives, I will embrace the fond memories that we have shared while we prepare to create new ones.  Just know that you my love, always have been, and always will be THE WIND BENEATH MY WINGS. 

As a teacher it is easy to become overwhelmed with paperwork, deadlines, challenging students and/or behaviors, and the overwhelming task of creating unique and engaging ideas to reach each and every child at their individual levels.  Today was one of those days that makes all the hard work worthwhile!  

One of my students who has struggled getting the concept of blending sounds together to make words, read her first word today. For most kids that's a simple task they learn in kindergarten, but for this student it was a milestone that I will forever be extremely proud of being a part of!!!!

I had forgotten what it feels like to work with aggressive children, until about three weeks ago. It's heartbreaking because you know their little souls are just trying to cope with life the best way they can, but in the process you (the one person who wants to help them) becomes the target.  Somedays trying to not take the aggression or attacks personal can be extremely difficult.  Even when your logic knows that the behaviors are a manifestation of the disability. Lately I have been coming home exhausted, both physically and emotionally.  I give 150% to my kiddos and still it doesn't seem like it's enough some days.  I have watched my classroom fall apart as everyone in the room including the other students have been emotionally worn down by the current constant state of chaos in my room.  I am just seeking prayer for change and resolve for everyone involved. #onedayatatime #givingitalltoJESUS

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